Just Keep Breathing.

Feb batch is out! ^^

Thu, 04 Feb 2010 14:23:23 GMT

HELLOOOOOOOO <3
Finally came back from my long break of icon-ing :D
Did a 48-icon batch for february.

Click HERE to see it!
Please support~~

-lazy to put up preview-

THANK YOU ~ ! <3

Tired out.

Wed, 20 Jan 2010 14:10:18 GMT

Past 2 weeks of school have been really tiring.
Taken a toll on me.
Japanese on afternoons where other people go back at 1pm.. i go back at 4.
And me and Jean go to Korean class every friday, get back home only at ~10.15pm.
And when cca starts, i'll go tuition.
Sigh :\

At least there's more in school in store for me that I feel good going.
Made new friends, Zifang, Jingqi, Chengdi, and the Koreans too!
Jihyun, Taejin, Jonghyun, Yongjoo.. :D
They're really fun and all :)

Poor Gemmi dear is sickkkkk D:
Get well soon! ^-^
Unnie supports you <3 Take care and rest more kayye.
<33

Parents leaving for Jakarta tomorrow, be alone with grandma and maid till monday.
Not bad, quite shiok la.
But Sunday = go training myself, and no adeeee :(
She going SHINee fansigning D:
At least she helping me get Jonghyunnie's <3
WOOOHOOOOOO! -Jumps around-

Stupid la, cos of Jonghyun and Taejin (oppa xD) at school saying they're shinee, now when i think of shinee.. -.-"
ASKFJALK. Irritating fellows xD
First BOF F4, then SHINee. Tsktsk.
And jonghyun is my dongsaeng! :D
Andandand he's jandi! xDDD

Ok, shall stop being random.
Head's throbbing a bit, karate was quite strenuous.
But somehow I was quite high xD
So yeah, not THAT tired i guess.

About my icons, I'll be updating a batch of ~40-50 icons in February.
Idk, try to clash with Kyu's birthday :)
Consists of KARA, Suju, SHINee.. yup.
Will be posting it at the LJ graphics comm too :D
CLICK HERE FOR AWESOME ICONS :D

Kayyyezxzx, shall get back to icon-ing and go sleep soon.
Bye~~

생일 축하해, 강인 오빠!

Sun, 17 Jan 2010 14:27:26 GMT

The funny, humourous and loved oppa we all know of.
Happy birthday <3

Cos we know you'll be back.
Oppa, be back soon, ELF are waiting for you <3
Happy Birthday! ^-^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOSEOB.

Wed, 06 Jan 2010 15:40:54 GMT

YOSEOBIEE.
5TH JANUARY 1990.
SORRY THIS CAME ONE DAY LATE.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE.
SAENGIL CHUKAHAE!
AND OMG, YOU'RE LEGAL.

<33 BEAST!

New batch!

Sat, 02 Jan 2010 05:49:13 GMT

And there are girls~~
Seohyun [SNSD] (5) and Hara [KARA] (7).
They're my biases :D

Guys:
Hae (2), Teuk (1), Jonghyun (1), Yooseob (2), Massu [NEWS] (1), Hamin [Ulzzang] (3)

:) I hope you guys like it!
Feel free to comment ^^

Icon-crazy.

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 19:09:36 GMT

I think I am.
Blame gimp. And daddy x3

Contents: Nickhun (2), Wooyoung (1), Teuk (2), Hae (1), Min (2).

Going to bed before my eyes drop right out of my socket.
Hope you love this batch <3

Happy new year! :)

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 16:07:35 GMT

More icons for the new year? xD
Taemin, Teuk, and Sungmin :D

Those are teuk's abs btw.
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNGMIN <3

GIMP! ^-^

Thu, 31 Dec 2009 08:40:05 GMT

Dad introduced me to a similar-to-photoshop software, called Gimp.
Just google it, you'll find it :)

Icons made/modified from gimp:

Icons!

Wed, 30 Dec 2009 17:41:19 GMT

I had nothing to do.

:) I really need photoshop, tyvm.
Sorry for the large hae spam. You know how much I love him.

Bittersweet; Chapter 6: Hunted Down.

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 17:05:26 GMT

Title: Bittersweet - Chapter 6: Hunted Down.
Rating: G
Summary: The start of everything; when you start off, it's sweet, you never want it to end, but when the bitterness sets in, you never want it to last a second more, but who said fate listened to you?

Just the week before, she was gazing at her phone like a statue, her eyes never straying from the vibrant, swirling colors on her wallpaper, her mind blank, lying in wait of a vibration or a message that would pop up. She was like a zombie, constantly spacing out, her eyes fixed on nothingness.

The two people that shared a history together, the smiles and the laughter, became frozen; the contact between them melted away like ice in an oven. They would pass each other without a word, smiles turning into straight faces, eyes darting away.

Eunhye, with some good shaking and talking from Vic, finally decided it was going to only cost her feelings and her money trying to contact a person who doesn’t reply messages or pick up your calls, practically a stranger.

Just when she was still wobbly trying to stand back up, Seung Joon contacted her, inviting her to study with him and his roommates in school the next day. Her feelings skyrocketed, and she gleefully prepared herself the next morning, thinking it he had thought it over, and perhaps, to put it simply, wanted her back.

Jungmin greeted her at the gate, and escorted her to the canteen. She spotted Seung Joon at a nearby table. She set her things down with a slight thump.

“Hey.” The corners of her mouth turned upwards, the cheerful smile no one had seen in ages surfacing at the sight of him.

He looked up, and almost angrily, he asked her,
“What do you want? Go sit somewhere else.”

Shock overwhelmed her.

“You asked me over..?”
She calmly said, trying to shake off the shock that paralyzed her nerves.

“So? You can sit somewhere else, why you sit with me?” He replied, a tint of irritation in his voice. “Bitch.”

That did it. Her heart thumped furiously, hurt and raging with anger. She stopped the argument in silence, and set her things on a table nearby, her back facing him. She looked up to the sky, trying to stop the hot tears that would drop any moment. The familiar feeling of confusion filled her mind again.

She survived his taunts and insults through till lunch, and once he stood up to get his lunch from the canteen stall, she stood up, and jogged to the vending machine, cursing under her breath. She sat herself on a bench opposite the vending machine as she munched on her cookies. She stood up after a while, dusting the stray crumbs off her shirt.

She turned around, spotting a girl she didn’t know sitting beside Seung Joon. She returned to the table, and Jungmin invited her to study with them – him, that unknown girl whose name was Faye, and Seung Joon, who smile amiably, the contrast momentarily irking her. How could someone change that fast?

But she didn’t need to question his intentions.

Eunhye’s eyes scanned the small print on her thick textbook aimlessly, trying to focus on her test materials. She glanced up for a moment, catching a glimpse of where Seung Joon and Faye were seated. And as if right on cue, Seung Joon adjusted his chair, and leaned back towards Faye until his head was comfortably snug at the crook of her neck. Faye tried to push him off, but he stubbornly lay there, snatching her pen as well, earning a light protest. He just smirked in delight.

Eunhye set her book down, her hands shuddering slightly in surprise. What was he doing? Thousand of questions burned in her mind, and each and every one pivoted around Seung Joon. Faye finally managed to shove his head off her shoulder, and she slapped him playfully on the arm. The frozen Eunhye darted her eyes off to her book, avoiding Faye’s glance in her direction.

Seung Joon eyed her for several moments. The shock radiating from her body seemed to impress and amuse him. He smirked to himself again, before placing his hand on Faye’s. She shook her head helplessly, and continued scribbling her notes with her free hand.

“Eunhye-ah.” He called out in a rigid tone, without a tint of affection.

Her head shot up. She refused to be defeated in a situation like this. She covered up her vulnerable side with a shield of resilience. He requested her to run through the biology notes with him. He asked her everything, and she explained as simply as possible.

As if he created the chance deliberately, every time he asked her something, he would adjust his position with Faye again, showing bits of intimacy that they used to share, as if he wanted Eunhye to witness his every move, as if he wanted to break through her walls of resilience right there. But she held on, struggling to hold her tears and rage in, and keeping her body stiff so her shuddering wouldn’t show.

When the sun finally descended behind the trees, splashing a scarlet hue over the clear sky, the study group disbanded, and Eunhye bounded out of the school gates, a fake smile plastered on her face. She boarded her bus with rushed steps, and ran to the corner where there was no one there.

And there, the tears that had been forced to stop flowed out boundlessly. Crying silently, her head buried between her knees, the poor girl didn’t get up until she reached her stop.

She felt like a rabbit trapped in a hunting trap and the hunter taking an aim at her; and the fear of the unknown future was daunting.

A/N: Thanks for reading :3 Yes, he's a bastard :)

Bittersweet; Chapter 4 and 5: And He Left/Losing Focus

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 15:50:50 GMT

Title: Bittersweet - Chapter 4: And He Left. Rating: G Summary: The start of everything; when you start off, it's sweet, you never want it to end, but when the bitterness sets in, you never want it to last a second more, but who said fate listened to you?

She pulled out her handphone from her pocket. She gazed at the screen, and it was Seung Joon calling her. She fumbled to answer it.

"Hey babe, im boarding the plane now.. Take care."

What? This was too early. He said 9.45, but it was only 9.30. She was so panicked, but she couldn't shoot her mouth off because she was in her parents' car.

"Okay.." she choked back the three words that were trying so hard to break free from her tightly-sealed lips, and constantly blinked her eyes, hoping tear drops wouldn't blow her cover. She hung up, and thankfully her parents did not notice. She stared out at the fast-moving scenery, looking up to the skies. "Take care, my love."

And a single tear dropped from the corner of her eye.

A/N: I realized I cut my storyline really awkwardly, so this chapter became really short :/

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Title: Bittersweet - Chapter 5: Losing Focus.
Rating: G
Summary: The start of everything; when you start off, it's sweet, you never want it to end, but when the bitterness sets in, you never want it to last a second more, but who said fate listened to you?

Through the week, Eunhye drifted in and out of focus, trying her best to do up her holiday homework, study for the upcoming tests, but whatever she tried to do to distract herself from the thoughts of him seemed to increase the intensity of those thoughts.

And it was torture.

She would stay up every night, waiting for him to come online, and they would make video calls. She did appreciate it, but at the back of her mind, she wanted to see him in person. She missed his scent, his touch, his warmth, his teasing, even those little little things he would do to get her pissed off.

That sunday which Seung Joon touched down in Seoul, Eunhye had a taekwondo competition. And Seung Joon had promised to try to come. She called him once he touched down, excitedly telling him how much she had missed him.

Seung Joon sounded unenthusiastic, and seemed to be trying to get her off, but she shook off the thought, telling herself he was tired. But, in the end, he didn't come, and if she called, he always tried to end it. But she still satisfied herself with "Oh, he must be tired."

But oh, how wrong she was.

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She clutched her books to her chest and listened to Young Ae's newfound jokes, her cheery laughter occasionally ringing through the packed corridor. Her eyes occasionally darted around, looking for him.

She would imagine him strolling down the corridor with big steps, his gaze fixed on hers, that signature smile she so adored on his face, his ivory teeth peeking from behind his lips.

"Hey Seung Joon!" The two magic words were enough to make her head shoot up. And there, with his backpack slung on one shouler and a basketball under his arm, was Seung Joon.

She restrained herself from beaming like a complete moron. Her eyes waned like crescent moons, and she smiled bright enough for him to understand her excitement. But he simply returned with an almost-cold glance at her, and continued in her opposite direction, their shoulders lightly brushing each others', his hard gaze fixed ahead of him, practically ignoring Eunhye, who could only watched the man she loved walk away from her helplessly.

She hid her surprise well enough from the girls' suspicion with a light laugh, restarting where they had left off to greet Seung Joon.

Her chin on her palm, Eunhye stared at the hunched figure who was weirdly hardworking that day, copying notes, never meeting her glance. She was horribly distracted, so much that halfway through the day, the girls gave up on asking her anything.

They went to play basketball during their break as per normal, and Eunhye was expecting him to come, but even till 6pm, he didn't show up.

Vic, who was the only person who was in the know of the two, finally urged her.

"Hey, if we don't go back now, the gates will be locked.. I know you've been waiting for him, but i don't think Seung's going to show up. It's so late already." Eunhye refused to budge. "Come on.. Let's go. There's always tomorrow, Eun."

She took the stubborn girl's hand, and Eunhye reluctantly trudged behind the other girl, watching the crimson sun set behind the looming hostel. As she gazed towards the building, she asked silently: "What's happening...?"

A/N: Thanks for reading :3

Bittersweet; Chapter 3: The Shine Before The Storm.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 00:02:59 GMT

Title: Bittersweet - Chapter 2: Developments.
Rating: G
Summary: The start of everything; when you start off, it's sweet, you never want it to end, but when the bitterness sets in, you never want it to last a second more, but who said fate listened to you?

It was the last week of the term. Seung Joon decided to get Eunhye on a proper first date before going off to Japan for his holiday trip. His flight was the next day, the first Saturday of the holidays, and he wasn't coming back till Sunday evening, the next day being the first day of the 2nd term.

Eunhye was saddened. Even one day without seeing him was hard to bear, what more was a whole week? These thoughts constantly bugged her mind.

Giving an excuse to her parents that there was a class outing that Saturday, she dressed up properly, being careful not to dress too desperately, and not too extravagantly, and maybe not too.. Well, let's just say she put in a lot of thought into her outfit.

She conveniently threw on her black jacket, pulling down the zipper to a safe v-neck, and wore her favourite gray skirt. She tied up the upper half of her hair, and carefully clipped on her star necklace.

After spraying some cologne and picking up her sling bag, she slipped into her pair of silver casual shoes, and left the house.

Her dad dropped her off in front of the mall entrance. She strolled leisurely into the mall, her eyes glued to her handphone screen, her fingers nimbly typing a message to him:

"Seung, where are you?"

He replied soon after, and soon she found herself at the main atrium of the mall. She scanned her eyes over her surroundings, trying to spot Seung.

Her vision suddenly became pitch black as she felt a pair of warm hands covered her eyes.

Her body once tensed at the sudden contact, but her muscles relaxed, realizing who had played with her. She grasped the hands and pulled them down from her face.

He stuck his tongue playfully at her, along with a cheeky grin. She shook her head, knowing there was no way this kid could ever grow up.

They proceeded for lunch, where they chatted, laughter brightening up the dull atmosphere of the restaurant. In a flash, they were in the ticketing queue, and the next, they were seated in the dark cinema hall, a bag of popcorn in Seung Joon's lap.

The lights went off, and the bustling, crowded cinema hall was hushed. The movie began. It was about a murder investigation, and the murderer was a genius. In simple words, it was a movie requiring that certain amount of attention to be able to grasp its meaning.

The first, perhaps, half an hour was spent attentively listening to the movie as it blared sound effects and dialogues across the dark theater.

But then, when Eunhye reached her hand in for more popcorn, she felt another hand grab hers. Startled, she looked at Seung Joon, who only smirked cheekily. They never exchanged physical contact like this before. The furthest was only the random touches on her face, the pokes; just their playfulness. But this was different.

He grabbed her hand out of the popcorn bag, and she shifted in her seat, and leant her head on Seung Joon's shoulder. She breathed in his scent, a sweet yet unique mix of his deodorant and his clothes.

She slinged her arm in his, and held his other hand with her free one. She looked up at Seung Joon, and whispered:
"I'm cold..."

He intertwined his fingers with hers, and rubbed her hand between his palms, hoping it would warm her up a little. He then slung his arm in hers again. Their eyes caught each other's, and shy smiles crept across both their faces.

She tried to concentrate on the movie. But at that moment, his hand let go of hers. She dismissed it from her mind.

But then, a flash of pitch black flew across her vision, and she felt warm points of contact on her cheek. Seung Joon's fingers ran across the side of her face, as though drawing streaks of warmth on her delicate skin. She let her eyes shut for several moments, feeling the raw presence of just the two of them in the huge theater, as though saving every little tint of detail into her memory.

She sat up after a while, feeling guilty that she leant on him practically throughout the movie. But as soon as she did, she missed his warm touch, and momentarily regretted her action.

When she thought she was finally paying some attention to the movie, a hand snaked up her waist, and she was tugged back into his grasp. She gasped quietly, before glancing around nervously, hoping no one was staring their way. She snuggled into his arms, reliving the feeling of heat seeping through her skin that she missed so fast.

They spent the last few minutes leaning against each other, and after the movie ended, the lights came on. Letting go of each other, they gathered themselves and walked out the exit as though nothing had happened.

They walked around the spacious mall, before finally parting at the train station, where Seung Joon mentioned he had to get several things for his family. They didn't hug, didn't kiss, didn't even hold hands before they parted, and walking away towards the train platform, tears began to fall from her eyes, remembering it was her last time seeing him before a long week of separation.

Just that, she didn't know it was going to be just a week..

A/N: Thanks for reading :) Please comment, thanks ^-^

Bittersweet; Chapter 2: Developments

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 16:04:48 GMT

Title: Bittersweet - Chapter 2: Developments.
Rating: G
Summary: The start of everything; when you start off, it's sweet, you never want it to end, but when the bitterness sets in, you never want it to last a second more, but who said fate listened to you?

Students stampeded out of the track after morning assembly, the huge crowd slowly dissipating out from the several exits.

She made her way back to class, surrounded by the usual girls - Vic, Ji Yeong, and Young Ae. And as usual, they were laughing at gossips and jokes. She smiled meekly while keeping her gaze fastened on the floor, still worried about her lost chain.

She looked up as she approached the classroom, to find Seung Joon walking towards her. He smiled in recognition, and she smiled back wearily.

Throwing her bag on the chair, she jogged outside the class, hoping she would catch up with him. She halted in her steps to find him leaning against the corridor railing, his back facing her.

She set her arms against the railing beside him. He turned his head towards her.

"Hey.." He dragged the ending note, as if talking to an old friend, his charismatic face lighting up with a charming smile.

Unknowingly, her heart thumped hard beneath her clothes. She weakly creased her mouth up a little.

"Just wanted to thank you for trying."
"No problem. I should help a friend."

Suddenly, Young Ae hollered from inside the classroom.
"Eunhye-ah, isn't this yours?"

She spun around. And there in her hand was her name chain, the six silver letters and the little fish reflecting the morning sunlight, sending bright flashes in her direction.

Eunhye gasped.

"See, told you you'll find it." A voice from behind her came, a slightly playful smugness hinting in his voice, before the figure rose up, stretching his arms lazily, trudging into the classroom.

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Since then, Seung Joon and Eynhye shared a close bond.

Eunhye didn't know if she felt anything for him. He was charming, humorous, and easygoing, and they got along perfectly. Maybe she just needed a nudge.

And one day, it came.

Seung Joon, Vic and Eunhye were playing basketball alone by themselves. Eunhye held the ball at the tip of the semicircle, and Seung Joon stood an arm's length in front of her, body slightly bent forward, arms spread out, getting ready to intercept the ball.

"You look like a chicken." Vic commented dryly from behind him. Tinges of amusement showed on Seung Joon's face. Eunhye, squeezing her eyes shut, burst into a fit of giggles.

As though in a fit of revenge, Seung Joon reached his hand up, and pinched her right cheek. Eunhye, still laughing, slapped his arm playfully.

"Hey! Your hands are dirty!" That's all she managed before erupting into laughter again.

Although on the surface, she didn't seem to mind, Eunhye kept replaying that moment where his fingers came into contact with her face, that spot where it continued to tingle even an hour later. Eunhye was more confused than ever.

Ever since then, Seung Joon started displaying bits of affection everyday, but never telling her he liked her, but the hints he dropped were pretty obvious that he did. Eunhye consulted Vic, and she thought it was pretty real too.

Seung Joon would pinch her cheek every now and then, touch her nose, poke her side, purposely blocking her in a match, making faces at her in class, and Eunhye started relaxing around him as well, playing with him at times too.

His messages started including signs of closeness; using sentences like, "You're cute" or "Sweet smile". And you may say Eunhye was gullible, but she was getting drawn to him as well.

One fateful night, they were messaging each other as usual, and suddenly his reply came back as:
"Eunhye ah, i think i'm falling for you.."

Her mind was in a whirl. She didn't need a relationship right now; she knew it wouldn't last at this age, and she knew that it could be dangerous because they had just known each other for a month, and it was a rash choice.

Furthermore, she wasn't even sure if she really loved him, or was it the little acts of affection that affected her judgement.

The most important question that ran through her mind was: Was he able to promise that they could remain as good friends if they were to break up? Even if he were to agree, when it happens, can he really stick to it?

She tried to refuse him, but in the end, she succumbed, telling him about her troubles and worries that led to her hesitation. He comforted her, telling her a relationship as only titles, and as long as they knew they loved each other, there was no need for fancy names. He also sweared to the rpomise Eunhye stated before him.

And that was the start of the two.

Nicknames such as "Seung" and sweetalking with "Dear", "Honey", and cliched "I love you" and everything that came with it. A big smile was always plastered to Eunhye's face. Well, it's hard to resist the bliss that she recieved from Seung Joon and his loving for her.

Eunhye's parents were very strict; they almost never let her go out with her friends with no reason, and sometimes she felt deep guilt when she couldn't meet Seung Joon when he wanted to.

But still, they had mini dates - Him treating her to lunch, her shopping with him, and they spent Valentine's Day together, although it wasn't an official date. He even gave her a Eeyore plush toy on that day, and insisting to name it Eun Joon.

The couple never fought, and each day passed only in happiness and pure bliss. Every tear would be replaced with a smile, every hint of fury, replaced by forgiveness.

But the best was yet to come..

A/N: Thanks for reading! :) Please feel free to comment/criticize. Chapter 3 coming up!

Wooh.

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 14:23:03 GMT

To my favourite dongsaeng:

Gemmi-ah, trivial matters don't deserve to have your attention, so don't dwell on it too much, and smile! :DDD
You have unnie here keh ^-^
Saranghae <3
Hey, you don't want to see unnie getting scolded by hae cos I don't take care of you, do you?
So take care keh! :)

Love,
Apple Unnie! :D
P/s: Tomorrow's your day, don't let anything get in the way :)

Something that cheers ~~you~~ me up:

Congrats to my dear dorks.

SJ got 3 awards at "24th Golden disk award", Disk daesang, Disk bonsang, Popularity award
Super Junior got 3 awards at “24th Golden disk award” which was held on December 10th at Olymimpic hall, Seoul Olympic Park.

List of the award :

Disk bonsang - 3rd album “Sorry sorry”
Disk daesang - 3rd album “Sorry sorry”
Samsung YEPP Popularity award

When accepting their disk daesang award, member Leeteuk said “Thank you, thank you, thank you. Since we were still traniees and became singers, we always dream about this place and now we’ve achieved that dream. From now on we will aim for the bigger dreams”. “I want to say thanks to our fanclub Super Junior’s Everlasting girlfriends, and I want to say I really love you to the beloved members that cant be together with us here now”

original source : here
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net
may take out with full credits and dont add in your own credits

Congrats, boys <3

OHOH, andandand THIS (the first part):

Suju+SHINee dance/sing(!!) Beat It, and Bad. Then SNSD doing smooth criminal.

Sigh, I really dk what to do right now. Tired and all.
Shopped an entire day with my mum, shopping @ 313 and imm.
Ugh, what's with the lame xmas party theme of Hawaiian man.
Like there's nothing better ~.~

We went all around 313, going to UNIQLO (!), ESPRIT, HMV, eventually Chameleon and OP to get stuff for the party.
Didn't buy anything at UNIQLO, but mum bought 2 shirts :) it was all winter wear and fleece jackets ~.~
I got a gray shirt with pink collar and pink ends of my sleeves @ ESPRIT! :D SO happy.

Didn't get anything at HMV, was planning to get Super Girl mini album, but they didn't have it D:
Was also considering FT. Island/FT. Triple Double Date, but it was like $36 :O
Saw Sorry, Sorry Taiwan Version. Was practically hugging it x)

Eh, went to Chameleon :D
Was sitting in the store laughing at all the accessories that made no sense with my mum.
GOD, we looked like retards.
I tell you, im not going to EVER get flower accessories until like 100 years later -.-
Spent 2 hours on its own just to get the stuff for the party.

Got a low-necked shirt and a tube to wear inside from OP. Quite pretty :D
But it wasn't really my first choice.
Oh well.

Went to IMM, got the things for my mum's xmas party lucky draw.
Was waiting for the dude who was writing the warranty card, and suddenly i heard the first part of the Sorry, Sorry MV.
I turned my head, thinking "Omg, can it be."
Then the familiar tune came on and I was fangirling in Best Denki -.-
Wow.
And high like siao already, the uncle changed it to Tell Me Your Wish -.-
Ugh, IRRITATINGGGGGGGG D:

Went home, BUSHED. My legs are aching.
Bleh. Shall continue with my fanfic so I can sleep earlier and wake up on time tomorrow.
I shallz be going to Jean's place :D
Then Korean class.
Dang, gonna be really tired tomorrow :/

Wish me luck ^-^

Bittersweet; Chapter 1: The Start of it All.

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 18:34:32 GMT

Title: Bittersweet - Chapter one: The Start of it All.
Rating: G
Summary: The start of everything; when you start off, it's sweet, you never want it to end, but when the bitterness sets in, you never want it to last a second more, but who said fate listened to you?

The new boy in class seemed distant. Constantly looking out of the window, he didn't take the initiative to talk to the other guys, much less the girls.

She scanned her eyes over the boy. He was quite tall, about 175cm, dark eyes that drew you in, those that would mesmerize without additional make up, and even when he was expressionless, he looked cool and perhaps, suave.

At least, she thought, he was a better catch than the rest of the male species in the level, which irked her one way or another.

The bell rang, diverting her glance from the boy. She packed her things and rose up from her seat, thoughts of the boys slipping her mind almost instantly.

"Let's go, Eunhye!" Her best friend, Victoria, or Vic, for short, called out to her cheerily, holding a basketball in her hands. The girl nodded, and they bounded down the stairs with the other girls, laughter bouncing off the walls of the staircase.

"Eh," Ji Yeong wailed in dismay. "The whole court's occupied.."

All the girls turned to look at the court. Indeed, the seniors were playing on one, but Eunhye noticed on the other side was that new boy, Seung Joon, playing by himself.

"Isn't that Seung Joon?" She said, thinking aloud. "Since we're classmates, there's no harm right?" She flashed a smile at the other girls.

The other girls looked hesitant, but everyone was so eager to shake off the sleepiness from the last lecture that they couldn't care less. Young Ae took the ball out of Eunhye's hands.

"You go ask him."
"Wait, why me?" She tried to protest, but the girls just pushed her onto the court, following her slowly behind.

"Uh, hey.." She smiled nervously at the boy, who stopped shooting hoops and looked at her curiously, raising an eyebrow.

"Um, hi?" He replied between breaths, his sweat glistening under the scorching sunlight.

"Uh, could we..." Eunhye gestured at the girls, "share the court..?" From behind her, the girls beamed.

"Oh, sure, sure, go ahead." He replied casually, before turning back to the court. The girls spread onto the court, and started shooting like how we normally would.

He ran forward, his leg muscles powering his every step. The ball bounced in rhythm to his steps, and once close enough, he took two steps and tossed the ball up. The ball continued on its route and landed with a light 'swoosh' into the hoop.

The girls' mouths all formed an 'o'. A perfect layup wasn't very common in what they usually saw in school, so this proved to be a really formidable feat.

The ice was broken when funny incidents occured and everyone burst out laughing, or when they exchanged glances with each other, both parties reciprocating the other party with small smiles.

And like that, they played on till all the girls left, leaving Vic, Eunhye and Seung Joon, who continued to play as the sun began to set. Looking at her watch, Eunhye realized how late it was.

"Hey Vic, let's go, it's almost 6." Her friend nodded, taking the ball and proceeded to pack her bag.

Eunhye looked back at the figure on the court whose movements were illuminated and defined by the soft orange glow behind him. He caught her eye.

"Bye!" He shouted, raising a hand to wave.
"Bye!" She smiled softly at him. Vic waved, and the two trudged wearily towards the back gate.

As they dragged their feet up the flight of stairs of the overhead bridge, Eunhye fished out her phone to call her mum to "report" to her she was on the way home, despite never understanding why mothers were so paranoid.

That was the fateful moment where she realized her name chain that was attached to her handphone was gone.

"Oh my god, Vic, did you see my name chain?" She stuck her hands in her pockets and searched through her bag, but it was all in vain; the chain wasn't there.

The duo retraced their steps along the way, their eyes prying every nook and cranny of the walkway that connected the gate to the school, but again, it wasn't there.

Eunhye was running out of time. She had to be home by 7 for tuition, but if her mum found out she had flushed $16 down the drain, she daren't imagine the consequences.

They rushed back through the school gates, running into Seung Joon, who was on his way back to the school hostel, sipping a cup of beverage, the ball snug between his arm and his hip.

He walked towards them, surprise written on his face, sweat still dripping from the sides of his face.
"You guys.. Why are you back again?"

"I lost my name chain.." Her eyes darting around, not giving up the search.

"If we keep searching, you're not going to reach home on time, you know." Vic said skeptically. "Just give it up."

"I'll help you look for it, if you're in such a rush." Seung Joon offered. Eunhye looked up, and her worry faded off to a huge megawatt smile.

"Thanks, Seung Joon-sshi!"

"It's ok, since i live here and all." He gave a smile. "I'll message you if i find it. Your number's in the class list Ms Baek gave me."

"Ok, thanks a bunch!" She grinned and with a wave, she continued her journey back with Vic.

That night after tuition, Eunhye felt a vibration against her thigh. She took the phone out of her jean pocket. It was a message from an unknown number. It read:

"Hey, it's Seung Joon here :) i searched the canteen, the court, and also the walkway and bridge outside the school, but i couldn't find it.. Sorry! The classrooms were already locked, so i couldn't search there. Don't lose hope, you'll find it! :)"

Despite the disappointment that rose up in her chest that the chain was still not found, she smiled, touched by Seung Joon's actions; considering the fact that they barely knew each other.

Quickly typing and sending off a message of gratitude, she slid her phone back into her pocket, and closed her eyes as the cool night breeze danced through her hair.

She couldn't explain the fuzzy feeling she felt in her, but whatever it was, she liked it.

A/N: Thanks for reading! :D Please comment/criticize, constructive comments appreciated :)
Geez, it's only chapter one and it's already so long, idk D:

My Princess.

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 18:56:30 GMT

My first sad/romance fanfic, uhm, i hope it's not too bad :/

Title: My Princess.
Rating: PG (Nothing much, really.)
Summary: A misunderstanding.
A/N: I was feeling kinda down today, and Maldo Eobshi (Without Words) - Park Shin Hye just made me feel worse. Luckily, writing the fic made me feel better ^0^

Her heart skipped a beat.
Just thoughts of seeing him.. It drew out a light chuckle from the girl, backed up by a wide smile, that showed off her pearlie whites.
She placed her pencil down, and slumped her chin on her palm, her head wandering off, dreaming about that particular him.

Someone tapped her shoulder, and she twirled around quickly, putting a stop to the pleasing thoughts that drew her deeper like alcohol.

"Hey, Lee Eunhye." A familiar but disliked face spat out like venom. The girl just stared back resiliently. "Look at this." She shoved her cellphone in the other girl's face.

Her eyes scanned the screen, and she didn't like what she saw. Her resilience sizzled like an extinguished fire, and her eyes widened into plates.

He was involved in a theaterical production, and the picture showed him on stage. But his arms were cupping the girl's face, and his lips were pressed against hers.
Horror clouded her mind. That.. That girl was the same on that stood before her right now. Seeing her fallen expression, the girl just sneered.

"I guess the rumours of you two being together was just a plain.. Rumour!" She joked sadistically. "He kissed me with so much passion that i almost went breathless! You should've.."

She didn't bother listening to her drabble on. He did tell her about acting out a relationship in the play, but he didn't mention any kissing. Tears filled her eyes, and smashing the phone on the floor, she stormed out of the room, hot tears dripping down her face. From behind her she heard menacing laughter that resounded in her ears.

She increased her pace from a brisk walk to a run. She cried silently as her footsteps echoed through the relatively empty corridor, her hand covering her mouth. She ran up the stairs as fast as she could, and as she reached the top of the steps, she slowed down, and her cries became audible.

The cold wind blew hard in her face, as though trying to hush her cries. The rooftop was always the place where the two of them would be when they wanted to let their emotions out, and upon reaching, the memories started hounding her.

She slumped down onto her knees, and with her face in her hands, she sat down on the floor slowly.

"Why does it hurt like this.."

Rushed footsteps arrived on the rooftop behind her, but she didn't seem to hear it. He paced slowly towards the figure, whose cries were muffled by her hands, her back jolting up erratically with her sobs, and tears that fell against the floor, drop by drop.

The sight agonized him, and he felt an ache raising up in his chest. But he could not pinpoint the reason. He approached her slowly.

Suddenly, she felt strong hands embrace her from behind. Realizing who it was, she struggled from his grip, pushing herself away from the body that she knew so well. She pushed herself up from the floor, and without facing him, paced a few steps, replacing her hand against her mouth.

"Hey.. What's wrong?" He probed. Not getting a response, he took a step toward her, his hand lightly coming into contact with the back of her arm.

"Don't touch me!" She snapped back angrily, her voice quivering and her face still tear-stained.

He pulled his hand back, recoiling in shock at her sudden outburst of anger. She brought her hand down from her face, and slowly her once erratic sobbing reduced into sniffling.

With her back still facing him, she broke the silence.
"You weren't going to tell me about the kissing scene, were you?" She calmly asked, her voice quivering a little.

"Eunhye ah, i.." He tried explaining, but she wouldn't let him. She turned toward him, and her face was had hurt and anger written all over it.

"You didn't think i would find out, so you intended to hide it, right?" She choked out the words, tears starting to form in her eyes again.

"It's a play! I had to do it.." He argued. Upon seeing that she still didn't believe him, he continued, desperate.
"Eunhye ah, you know i don't like her anymore than you do.. You know that!"

She knitted her brows in frustration.
"But you could've done it less intimately! You---" He broke her sentence of by crashing his lips against hers. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she squeezed her eyes shut.

His fingers tilted her face towards his, and her eyelids relaxed. He softened the kiss slowly before breaking it off. He reached out and wiped the tears away with his fingers. She opened her eyes. He paused, their faces a mere inch away.

"And you know that i loathe her, but love you more than anyone else.. Right?" he looked deep into her chesnut-coloured eyes.

They stood there for quite some time, gazing into each others' eyes, the cold wind blowing through her hair, and the sunset illuminating their faces with a warm glow.

"You bet." She answered, her mouth creasing into a smile, and a sole tear detached itself from the corner of her eye.

Reciprocating her smile, he embraced the petite figure against his torso, letting his warmth slowly seep into the chilly skin of the girl.

His princess..

A/N: Thanks for reading! :D Feel free to comment/criticize~

For you, Acid :D

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 12:54:01 GMT

The Changmin fic I promised?
Sorry it's so short though :/

"Changmin-ah," She smiled as the soft beckoning escaped her lips.

She tilted her head downwards, only to find the boy asleep against her shoulder, his tender breathing felt against her shoulder. His body heaved up and down in a coninuous constant rhythm, and she was reluctant to wake up the sleeping prince.

Wait, her sleeping prince.

The train jolted harshly, and she held her hand up to cup his face, terrified that the rough movements of the subway would wake him up.
His eyelids fluttered.

"Mmmm... Noona.."
He arose from his slumber.
She looked at him, her eyes running over the childlike man beside her, who rubbed his eyes sleepily.
Her mouth creased into an amused smile, and she pulled her hand down from his face hesitantly.
"Mm?" She replied.
"Are we there yet?" He managed to say, before it all dissolved into a wide yawn.

She stopped herself from giggling.
"Shibuya. Shibuya." The subway speakers resounded through the chilly, half-empty carriage, making his question rhetorical.

She took his hand, interwining his slender, long fingers among her own, feeling the warmth of his palm slowly seep into hers.
She got up, and pulled the lazy boy up from his seat.
Although he appeared to be around her height when sitting down, it wasn't the case when they stood up. His legs straightened out, pushing him a head taller than her.

They walked out of the train.
The station was packed with people from all walks of life - students, office ladies and men, and even tourists.

His grip on her hand tightened. He wouldn't want to lose her in a crowd like this. He pulled her closer to his body, and she looped her arm in his, reciprocating the same idea. They inched slowly through the crowd, occasionally getting run into or shoved by other people who were in a big rush.

But the two of them were taking their time, enjoying each other’s pure presence amongst the sea of bodies that seemed to be nothingness around the two.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 16:26:07 GMT

DAMMIT, when I don't want LJ to go bs-ing on my, this happens.
I typed out a post on my HTC, and tried to copypaste it here, and it won't let me D:

ANYWAYYYY.
DAMMIT.
Fffuuuuuuuu.
Freaking scared now i feel like crying, dammit.
I did a last year JLPT paper and tho the passing mark is 60%, I ONLY SCORED A STINKING 67%.
This doesn't include the listening practice, but STILLLL.
Omfg.
I'mma read that list with all the must-know vocab and all.
I don't think that with this kind of lousy preparation, i can guaratee a pass for the test tmr.
UGHHHH, TATSUKETEYARUUUUUU!

I really neeeeeeeed to pass this!
And i neeeeeeed to make it happen.
So that's it. It's gonna be hardcore mugging and reading tonight AND tomorrow morning.
I don't want gemmi, who's coming back tmr from thai to face a crying and whiney unnie.

Ugh, eff you rania.
Why didn't you bloody mug?!?!?!
Ugh, you lazy asshole.
You better blooody pass this.
I shall stop ranting and start mugging.
Jya, matta ne.
SHINITAKUNAIII D:

Kudae Saranghamnida;

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 13:26:38 GMT

Blue Tomorrow - Super Junior M.

First and foremost, I would like to apologize for totally killing this LJ for this long.
Exams were long gone :)
Results aren't so bad, parents are quite fine with it.
Ate Sakae Teppanyaki (!!) last night for celebration...?
Haha, thanks mum.
It was SO AWESOME, omg.

Sigh, it's beeeeen, let's see, ~8months?
Should i cheer? :/
It's almost a year.

Anyway, OMG SO JEALOUS, GEMMI'S REALLLLYYY GOING TO THAILAND TO SEE SSII D:
:( GEMMMMMM, bring unnie with youuu :(
bah, i need to see them, like now.
!@*@*$)(I*)%(*!*@@_#(_)(%

Oh well, what else can i say.
RESCUE, a J-drama, is dammit awesome.
and yes, im trying to get my foothold back in Jpop, provided the songs suit my taste :/
So far, no offense but KAT-TUN isn't really working out for me...?
NEWS, though, on the other hand... :D
GOD, massu :DDD
And yes, massu's in RESCUE.
Heyheyhey, before you assume anything, i'm not liking the drama just cos he's in it.
The drama's really really really awesome.
I'm at Episode 9 now.
A good film, makes you feel the emotions they want to induce to the viewers.
and that's just what RESCUE does.
I've felt anxiety, happiness, rage, and even cried like.. 3 or 4 times already?
Gosh, watch it!! D:

I shan't crap much today, nothing much to crap about anyway.
And dang it, i tried biting my hard skin on my left finger tip, and i bitt through the soft skin.
Now it's wounded and I can't press my guitar string without cringing.
and typing's quite stinging too.
ARGH, WHY DID I FREAKING BITE IT D:

ok then, I'll go off now.
bye, people.
wish me luck with captain's ball tmr with this crapped finger of mine.

HAPPY 4TH YEAR, SUPER JUNIOR!

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 16:04:04 GMT

Happy 4th year, my hot dorks <3

Teuk: Thanks, angel, for taking such good care of the members, it's been really hard on you, all we elfs understand. (and thanks for making me love you :P)

Chul: Thanks, princess heesica, for bringing humour and weirdness (in a good way) to super junior. And the skinship that serves as "fanservice" :)

Geng: Xiexie, gege! :D for leading our dear sjm into China, guiding them and all. and making full house so funny with your chinese :D

Yesung: Thanks, multi-talented yesungie with your HADOUKEN! antics and your poor (boring) turtle that brought much laughter. And of course, your voice ^^

Shindong: Thanks, samgyeopsal, for your great dancing and your humour, again. hahaha, w/o dancing chubby shindongie, suju wont be where they are now!

Kangin: Thanks, kanginnie for your Mc-ing talents and your strength :D You know that ELFs will support you through your rough patch right? STAY STRONG!

Minnie: Thanks, bunny, for your cuteness ^-^ The im-not-the-maknae-but-i-look-like-the-maknae cutie who loves aegyo-ing :D Your voice+guitar = awesum!

Eunhyuk: Thanks, anchovy, for your antics that will make anyone ROFLTAO, and your fabulous rapping, dancing and smexy eyeliner-ness! x)

Donghae: Thanks, my darling fishy oppa, for your all-roundedness, your cute, neverending fanservice, and everything else i love about you. Which is.. everything.

Siwon: Thanks, muscleman, for your MUSCLES xD hahaha. Your hand gestures that tickles everyone, and your faithfulness in religion. I thank God for you, wonnie ^^

Ryeowook: Thanks, xuxu, for your precious cute face, and your perfect, soulful singing that jolts tears in the fans :') We're pproud of you, yeongwonhi-maknae~

Kibum: Thanks, cute kibummie for your love to fans. We really hope you'll come back and join suju for activities soon, we miss you! (and your cute smile :D)

Kyuhyun: Thanks, gamekyu, for your voice. Stop being so conservative! haha x) let loose more often, maknae-oppa! Be dorks, like your hyungs! :D

Henry: Thanks, mochi, for your... mochi cheeks? haha. Your voice is prection too. Please, don't let only13 bother you :( we all love you and mimi.

Zhoumi: Thanks, long-legs, for your brilliant composing skills and cool voice, and your "lady nana" humour xDDD Again, only15 elfs are slowly taking over only13 elfs.

Last but not least,
to all 15 of you, Super Junior would never have been the same without ANY ONE of you. Seeing any of you hurt/MIA makes us ELFs sad.
Stay healthy, rest enough, and be happy! ^-^
We love you forever.
SARANGHAE <3

Love,

Your Apple Dongsaeng :)

"Ris Low is short, fat and cool."

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 10:52:30 GMT

I made that up.
:D
for physics.

because when resistance (R) is Low,
Length is short,
Cross-sectional area is big,
Temperature is low!
im so cooool. hahaha x]

finally catching up with Gemmi ever since that sms-saving plan :(
sigh, i miss my favourite dongsaeng D:
so bad.

update on exams:
Chinese Paper 1
Chinese Paper 2
English Paper 1
English Paper 2
~~Physics~~
Chemistry
Math
History
Japanese

i just realized i actually had NINE blasted papers @!#(&!$*#
more than 1/2way through already though :D
and i kinda appreciate the 2 papers on 1 day thing.
cos when i get home, it's 2 papers off my shoulders :)

anw.
chinese was ok.
english was a giveaway.
physics was tricky, but not that bad.

jean and i just epic failed @ studying chemistry.
we ended up learning the chorus dance steps of SS501's Love Like This.
and guitar-ed, and camwhored.
chemistry?
the minimal "yeah, this one soluble, so to make precipitate need another soluble salt la."
that was all.
uhh, ooooooops? :D
camwhore pics are up on facebook.
dont think she'll kill me for the photos, but more of kill me for the captions.
LOL.

ok, im gna like, bathe, and eat dinner, and start mugging seriously.
maybe call jean to revise together or something.
in short, I NEED TO MUG PROPERLY.

ok, bye people, wish me luck for the remaining papers.
and sorry for the hiatus.

OVERWHELMED.

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 06:20:27 GMT

not a quote, just randomly thought of that.
i guess i should really update this place, so i don't get slaughtered by jean x]

but dno eh, i don't exactly feel like posting today.
i just.. don't feel good.

how can you not be emo when you failed your physics.
among 25 people, 4 failed.
and you're one of the 4.
how would you feel?
and you mugged like crap before this, and got a stinking 26 out of 55.
what can you say?
"ooooops.." ?
there's no point.

anw, baidu is guilty pleasure.
esp the donghae birthday thread @@
it's like.. HEAVENNNN :D
srsly man, i saved close to 200 pictures.
i'll post the gifs here, hope they'll work.

ahh, nvm.

i'll try to post tonight or something..
bye people!

/edit: OHMYFGOD. I JUST FREAKING SAW SHINEE DO A DANCE BREAK WITH SNSD.
AND WTF, INTIMATE SHIT.
OHMYGOD, JEALOUS BEYOND WORDS.

pissed.

생일 축하해;;

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 15:16:28 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!

Those pearl white teeth, charming killer-smile, the half-gloves that show off those hardworking hands and the bracelet that’s unable to missed.

The chestnut-brown hair that fell to your eyes - which twinkled brightly under the bright lighting; and the clothes that brought out your well-toned arms and body.

The slightly-crooked tie makes you look childish and cute, and as you sing, your voice reverberates in my ears.

The way you change me, Hae.

Never actually being there, you’ve supported me through the times I needed them.

Never actually doing anything specifically for me, your efforts on stage have always touched my heart.

Never actually having telepathy or connection, when you cry, I cry too.

All your efforts are recognized by not only ELFish, or Fishere, or all your personal fanclubs, but the whole population of ELFs, I’m sure.

Super Junior will never be the Super Junior they are now without their fish.

You’re irreplaceable, you know? J

Our Fishy-oppa, happy birthday!

Love you forever <3

우리 고기오빠, 생일 축하해!

영원히 사랑합니다 <3

100th day anniversary~

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 14:59:49 GMT

it's ISL's 100th day anniversary! :)
made that little, rushed and vague icon for it.
wrote it down, and scanned it x________x
hahahaha.

"Covering the world in sapphire blue, one balloon at a time."

"made in China."

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 11:50:26 GMT

courtesy of Yawen :)
was super active on tumblr today, keke.
posted LOADS.
tumblarity shot up from ~23 to 55 now, LOL.
coool much.
thanks for advice, jeannie <3
check out for all the interesting quotes and chats, HAHA.

uhhhhh.
oh, this is how oh(awe)some 203s are! :)
we were supposed to continue a sentence with as much prepositions we could use.
and this was what is bcame.
Original email from Ms Lau:

Dear Oh-some 203s,

Below is the paragraph we created during the Preposition lesson. Hope you have a better idea of what prepositions are and how to use them correctly. And no, I am NOT encouraging you to write such long, one-sentence paragraphs!

Mary, of Siberian ancestry in her pretty pink dress with a hat full of Gandhi’s hair made in India on the head, hurried away on Bus 16 with licence plate SBS 2818X to the toilet with a full bladder in the park full of flowers in Orchard Road to meet the little lamb with three legs from Mars on the toilet bowl on the ceiling made in China in the cubicle full of filth on 31st November at twelve midnight in the year 2010, before World War Three, to dance to Nobody by Wonderlambs in the Remix version in the moonlight while moonwalking with mosquitoes on a unicycle before going to the butcher on a big fat cow on four legs with chickenpox from an elephant from Iraq in Pulau Tekong during Hungry Ghost Festival of the Mayan culture for a barbecue .

HAHAHA, DAMN WIN CAN.
WE SUPER ENTERTAINED OURSELVES in english.

kk, gota run for tuition D:
byee :(